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IPS

IPS = I Pray Such (fill in prayers).

tmrw's Monday.
i haven't heard from Dr Lai. yet.
nor Prof Tong.
i'm so anxious. i am afraid.
Vincent also haven't leaked any news to me. sigh.

i feel so abandoned. forsaken is the word.

i am praying hard that they'll get back to me soon.
Lord Jesus, hear my prayers. may i be blessed to recieve that internship.
Mother Mary, please pray on my behalf. i'll like to try my hands on research work.
i want to contribute, work hard, think deep and gain rich experiences.
please pray for me that an opportunity be given to exercise my intellectual gifts.
in the name of the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit. Amen.

this internship to me is very important.
i want to spend my vacation wisely. i want to gain rich invaluable experience.
the monetary pay here is not an issue. i want to work with responsible advisers / mentors.
if money was that important, i would have persisted in my data-mining application at HSBC.
last thing i want for this hols is.... to be deported to China and work for my Dad. urgh.
no, i am not going away for any vacation too. no job = no pay = no vacation. simple mathematics.

then i canbid farewell to my own bed, my cosy abode, movie watching, eating good food, beach volley at sunset bay etc etc. then again, it doesn't really matter that much.
i don't go to the beach, i don't watch movie coz each weekday ticket cost $8.50, i don't alot of things... Josh is also a stay-home person. yawn. boring couple we are. i wonder what happened to my active sports life. or my artistic hobbies. i hate myself. i despise myself.

Cubbing is no longer as fun as it used to be. or maybe i am old and mellowed?
i get bored and tired easily. the music can be damn happening. the crowd can be gorgeous.
but i am still bored.
i think it's the company that makes or breaks the clubbing experience.
been out too often with lousy company. been disappointed too much.
i miss Liz and Freddy. i miss Jared and Co.
those guys are FUN. and RESPONSIBLE. oh well. Dec better come soon. *wink*

posted by Veen @ 21:19